So the vlog isn't going to happen. Some of you might be disappointed but I literally have spent most of the weekend trying to edit the stupid film but it won't work! I changed the file type of the film to a type that windows movie maker actually understands, and I upload it and then put it in the film, but it doesn't want to work for me and the sound is wrong and the video jumps between images. So, I have decided that until I can sort that out I will not vlog using that camera and instead I will use my Olympus digital camera. So, if I do anything exciting this week (other than prom, which I will be vlogging about) I will vlog it using that camera and it will be in a format that movie maker will understand without going crazy and stupid.
The other thing that I want to say is going to come as a surprise to my friends, who I know will read this. Basically, I hate the way that my parents treat me, because of the way that my sister acts and behaves. She's 19 but most of the stuff she gets moody about is pathetic - she once got in a mood because, despite the fact that she works, she wanted my mum to buy her a £900 sherri hill prom dress for her boyfriend's leavers party - she didn't want to pay for it because apparently my mum never buys her anything. She may think that she does but she definitely does not have any friends, the last time she was friends with someone my grandfather was really ill, and she kept trying to make herself the centre of attention, the girl she was friends with told her she needed to grow up because we obviously had more important things on our minds, so they fell out. Since she started at college she immediately became friends with the wrong people, the ones who smoked and drank all night, until they were throwing up and passing out. This is apparently why my parents don't trust me, they don't want me to do the same thing that she has done, they generally only let me drink when they can watch over me, and I was lucky to get my mums permission to drink a bit before prom. I keep trying to convince them that I'm nothing like my sister but she just won't believe it! My sister and I couldn't be more opposite! I've literally tried everything to convince them that I'm not like her but that isn't enough.
The second thing that annoys me about my parents is that they don't support what I want to do with my life, because I'm quite academic and I like biology and French (because they're the only subjects I'm actually good at) they think that I should get a really academic career, something I don't want. Most of you won't know this, except Eleanor, but I actually want to sing, and I know it's unrealistic, believe me, I do. But I've never really wanted to be anything else. I know that throughout my time at college I've said that I want to be things like a vet, a marine biologist, a geneticist (the most recent) and other academic things, but they were all lies. I've always wanted to sing, for as long as I can remember, but being academic meant that my parents don't support it and won't support it. I only managed to convince my mum to let me get singing lessons a couple of years ago by telling her that universities look well upon candidates that have grades in music (which they do), because it shows that you can work towards a deadline, and in effect be able to perform. I actually started the singing lessons with no intention on taking grades I just wanted the practice and the confidence to be able to sing in public. I used to be confident in my voice, but suddenly I wasn't confident anymore. My singing teacher said that it was ok to not want to do grades, but after a year my mum said that I would have to give up if I didn't want to do grades so now I'm working towards grade 4 which is good, I suppose. I don't care about being famous, that doesn't bother me, I just want to do what I want to do!
I know this blog post is really long and boring, but I promise there is a point to it. I'm learning now that if you're young, younger than me, my age or even slightly older than me, never give up on what you want to do. Even if right now you're 12 sat at home watching your favourite film or tv programme and wishing that when you're older you could be an actor, do what David Tennant did, get out, join a drama club and practice, so that when you tell your parents that you want to be an actor or whatever you want to be they can see that you're serious about it. I think that must be where I went wrong. I don't want to look back on myself in 10 years time and think, why didn't I do that? Why did I do this? Believe me because I can tell that must be the worst feeling in the world.
There is an amazing video on YouTube that illustrates my point perfectly
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFGAQrEUaeU
Watch this and you'll get the point
Bye
G
xxx
P.S. Remember that what you want for yourself and what others want for you are two very different things
